should i pursue art?

so there's been an idea nagging at me since the beginning of this semester. actually since way before to be truly honest. no matter now much i shove it down and try to ignore it, it surfaces again every time i go to mr. popp's art class, hold a camera, or hold a calligraphy pen. should i major in art?

i think i would like to, but i'm scared to. what if i'm not really good enough? what if it's just meant to be a hobby that i spend my life working at? can i do it? what would i do with an art degree? how would i pay for it?

yeah, so those are just a few of the questions that start tumbling around in my head when i begin to consider it. when i first started at sauk, i knew that i loved photography, but i didn't really think that i could do art seriously. now that i've been at school for three years, and accomplished very little, i wish that i had just started off taking art classes. i could have had at least an associate's degree by now. pursuing art would be pretty much starting over. i mean, if i do, it's good that i have some gen eds done. but do i really want to start over?

and i guess one of the things that really scares me is . . . what will everyone say? "geez, she's been going to school for three years and has nothing to show for it." it's true. i know that i shouldn't worry about what people say. easier said than done. yet others are surprised to learn that i'm not studying art. not that i mind office administration.

probably the biggest question i have is "what does God think of this idea?" i know enough to know that doing things out of God's will never really works out too well.

hmmm. so i'm thinking. and praying. and dreaming.

pray for me, will you?

i love this song because it's a wonderful reminder. it's an awesome thing to be excited about heaven. it's a delicate balance though. while we shouldn't be too focused on our temporal everyday lives, we also shouldn't waste the time God has given us here on the earth. hmm. i don't know about you, but I'm challenged.

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. . . yes, i know. it's probably kind of lame to post this picture. but i just had to. it makes me smile whenever i see it. i suppose that quote "a picture is worth a thousand words" really is true . . .

lauren